destruction - 11.05.2009 - creation

*** 10:30 pm ***

- what the fuck's your problem? -

a few people have come here through a search for the word "fucking." that doesn't make any sense. surely i'm not high on the list of fucking. well, ok, maybe your list, but not google's or yahoo's. is this someone spoofing? someone using a stalker program that lets them hide their real referral page? why would you fucking do that? do you think i'm going to eat you? quit fucking around and come fuck me already. i don't bite.

unless you want.

*** 8:22 pm ***

- texas scares me -

someone random read me today.

STATE OF TEXAS GENERAL SERVICES COMMISSION

outclick through sugarkitty corsets.

that's right, texas, if you want a corset go to sugarkitty. she's good for you.

*** 8:11 pm ***

- a good sore -

couples: Your new exercise routine is paying off and your lover is quite impressed! Encourage them to join you for a run in the park, and show them you have more than one way to get their heart pounding!

it's nice to be back into exercise. back at the gym. takes more time than i can spare right now, but it's nice anyway. probably i'll cut back in a week or two, but for now i'll go as often as i can.

baby's doctor told her to exercise. not more, but exercise period. she wasn't before. this is to help her sleep better. at first she'll feel worn out, but eventually her body will get used to it and she'll start sleeping better. more restfully. between this and reducing her caffeine intake she should improve greatly. so far, though, she doesn't seem to be exercising. her loss.

*** 1:11 pm ***

- constantly behind -

astrocenter: Your magnetism should be high today, Andrew. You'll really have a special glow about you as you interact with others. This extra charm will be quite a bonus in your personal life. Yes, you can go ahead and feel confident asking that special someone out for coffee, or even lunch. If you're involved in a relationship, be sure to include your significant other in your social plans for tonight. You're sure to have a smashing time together!

charm is good, charm is nice. charm doesn't get me very far. i still catch baby's eye, but most others don't regard me at all. at best we're friends, nothig more. somewhat distant, always apart. maybe the problem is my situation, or maybe it's my personality. i can only go so far before i have to make a move, but even then i'm waiting for her to say something first. i'm so afraid of being turned down i don't ask. how does that help?

as i type this i realize i don't really have anything to say about this horoscope. i thought i would, but no i think about it nothing's coming. i don't have plans to go out tonight--that was last night--and instead intend to continue preparations for the gmat and get my apartment organized. i haven't cleaned since boy was last here, so there's vacuuming and scrubbing that needs to be done. i have a lot of junk that has to be disposed of but i don't know where to take it. who wants a small mixing board? who wants metal shelves? who wants an ikea light fixture?

i've got to get my act together. i'm running out of time for the life i want. i haven't turned out the way i wanted.

*** 6:38 am ***

- plastic apple -

eating the right food

regret - 11.05.2009 - blame