destruction - 05.14.2008 - creation

*** 9:52 pm ***

- relax and get familiar -

daily: You've got to slow down eventually -- so why not today? It's as good a time as ever to make sure that people are on your side when the chips are down, so take it easy and see what you learn.

slow down? why not. how about i go to the gym first. how about i keep it short then go home and shower then trot back up to meet her at marshall field's to look at shoes? how about then we go to other stores looking for shoes, then walk home in time for antm?

then we can watch antm and i'll make something for dinner, how about beef and cheese mini-tacos, because she wants cow? sounds good. we'll watch antm then get on our computers and do whatever, that and goof around. then maybe later we'll do something together. that sounds like an easy night.

romantic: You're feeling the need for the familiar today. Nothing sounds better to you than your favorite meal at your favorite place, with your favorite person by your side. Call up your sweetie and ask them to meet you at your usual spot.

that would have been better, but it didn't pan out that way, obviously. though maybe our usual spot is on the couch in front of the tv. and i didn't have to call her because we live together. though that was not my favorite meal. no, i think the whole thing could have gone better, from a romantic and/or favorite standpoint. i guess it was familiar, but not in a particularly soothing way. maybe in a dull way, as in the same as usual. maybe we can work out something better to do some other time.

tomorrow she flies to florida for a few days. we're going to try doing something together now, but she's busy with something first. maybe we'll play a game, or maybe just cuddle--or possibly both. i'm not sure what she wants to do, but i'm up for it. even if it's reading our own books/magazines in bed together.

i'm getting tired, though.

*** 12:41 pm ***

- politicians lie because the truth hurts -

i'd vote for the truth.

*** 7:27 am ***

- "i'll make you lick my injuries" -

astrocenter: You could be feeling fired up today, star, full of passion for a particular project you are involved with. Or you might be enthusiastic about a relationship you have recently started. A sense of optimism and daring will accompany you today, and you can put this energy to good use if you try. All that passion can help you express yourself in bold, powerful ways, so don't hesitate to take center stage if the opportunity presents itself.

this is not how i feel. it will be interesting to see whether this comes to pass, but i doubt it. i'm not feeling energized this morning, or optimistic. i'm certainly not daring.

i think were i in a new relationship i would be enthusiastic about it--that goes with the territory. when it comes to self-expression, though, i wouldn't know a bold, powerful way if it smacked me upside the head. well, maybe that would necessarily be bold and powerful, but i don't think that's a good approach to other people. they won't appreciate me knocking them around.

*** 6:54 am ***

- do not bring back from dead -

sadness. it turns out the problem last night wasn't my computer, though it was dragging because it was downloading and installing a windows update. the problem was the ipod. i was trying to update my ipod and it wouldn't show up on the computer. i charged it when i got home, so it had power, but the computer wasn't recognizing it. it didn't work this morning either. i tried restarting the ipod on its own but got nothing. no response. the ipod is dead.

it's been through a lot. i still remember dropping it getting out of the car at that motel in florida, i think in gainesville. i took her to visit her h, and while she was gone the sherriff paid a visit to the room next to ours, while i was trying to sleep. this thing is a few years old and i think i'm ready for a new one. it'll be slimmer, yet hold more. i'll have to get a new hip case for it. replacing this ipod won't be cheap, but if the new one lasts as long, well, maybe that's ok.

i'm still sad to lose it. sad to have it die on me for no reason. maybe i can resuscitate it somehow, but we'll see. the previous ipod suffered a similar fate, if i recall correctly. i got a discount because i returned it when i got the new one. that's something at least.

*** 6:43 am ***

- king of the clouds -

sandwich-type, pressed-glass candlesticks

regret - 05.14.2008 - blame