SaveNetRadio.org
Get yours star me older entries newest entry

you can't leave questions/comments/concerns/idiocy here
babelfish

buy my cds
brilliance in action

all's well that ends well - 07.04.2009
somethin' else - 07.04.2009
what's for love? - 07.03.2009
"i may have been born yesterday, sir, but i was up all night" - 07.03.2009
lifehouselessness - 07.03.2009

red aerin
words
politics
supplemental somethings
alt star
face
star0
dja
my johari window

dja music survey
*0 music survey

a wedding photographer i know

another photographer i know.

i'm on twitter!

privacy policy

"SILENCE!"

destruction - 07.04.2009 - creation

*** 12:40 am ***

- all's well that ends well -

i'm twisted. part of the problem is the lack of contact. not talking to people and hanging out, not having good conversations, but physical contact. i come from a family that wasn't very affectionate, didn't show appreciation for each other well, and as a result i crave a lot of it. when i'm single i start getting jittery and anxious around people i find attractive. it probably sounds horribly desperate, and maybe it is. i'm always walking this line where i'm not sure what i can get away with. i don't want to ruin a friendship by misreading something.

example: my friend came over tonight, the only one who could hang out, and we had dinner and listened to music for a few hours. we talked and had a good time, and when she got tired she left. that's cool, that's what friends do, but i kept catching myself looking at her and wondering what if. i've been on my own since tuesday and i already miss physical contact. even a hug would have helped, but i couldn't even manage that. it doesn't help that i've had a crush on this girl for a while, mostly because she's unattainable. not that she's out of reach but that i've been in a relationship as long as i've known her. now i'm kind of worried about what i'll do when i'm single. i don't want to wreck the friendship.

|

*** 12:27 am ***

- somethin' else -

birthstone rings

|

regret - 07.04.2009 - blame

first

starfish kill monkeys make your friends hate you get love

link works, site does not
you suck SignMyGuestbook.com

file abuse here

My Amazon.com Wish List

thank you.

Listed on BlogShares

© starzero

sex